As you know, I dream of being very strong. The new habit I'm adopting this month is "at least five minutes of strength training every day". Things are going great so far!
The second project I have for my body is weight loss. I've had mixed feelings about both my overweight and the idea of losing weight in the past. I wanted to lose weight, but also refused to lose weight, thought I couldn't lose weight, but should lose weight, and simultaneously didn't care about my weight! Consequently, my weight has been going up and down in a quite chaotic way. But now that I'm befriending my body and getting to love it the (overweight) way it is, I find myself better able to formulate clear wishes and goals about it. One of them is to reach my ideal weight.
So I am now starting a challenging project: fat loss + muscle gain. I'm starting from zero (untrained and overweight), and want to end up with little fat and lots of muscle. The challenge will be to do it on a 100% raw, vegan diet.
I officially started on April 1st. Every month I will post a report about both the weight loss part and the muscle building part of the project.
April 1st report:
Weight: 68,4kg
BMI: 27,2
Weight loss report:
I have no target weight. I said I want to reach my ideal weight, but I have no clue what this ideal weight is. I've been overweight (even obese for a few years) for all of my adult life. Having never been thin as an adult, I have no clue what my weight should be. I do not even know what I look like as a thin adult. This is exciting but also scary.
What's going to be difficult for me on this journey is that I'll have to address a bunch of limiting beliefs and fears about weight loss. Losing weight definitely is a scary thing for me. When I went raw I lost so much weight initially that I had to take a break from the raw diet after three months, simply because I couldn't stand the quick melting away.
Now I am determined to lose weight, but I know I'll have to overcome serious blocks and probably a psycho-energetic reversal as well. Maybe I'll write about that in another post.
The weight loss part of the project won't be difficult from a physical viewpoint: I automatically lose weight when I'm 100% raw anyway, without having anything special to do about it. However, I expect it to be very challenging psychologically. I'll share what comes up.
Muscle building report:
Here it's the contrary: I expect it to be challenging physically, but very easy mentally. I love lifting weights! I feel so happy when I'm training. It just feels right. It feels like I'm doing what I'm meant to do. No problem.
I'm still in the input phase, learning a lot and randomly trying things out. What's sure is that I train daily, but with varying intensity (varying weight and/or varying numbers of reps). I tend to alternate "fit" days with maximal power and "lazy" days where I do about half as much or less. I don't try to progress every day. I also do not train to failure. Instead I focus more on being fully concentrated and on learning the proper technique. And on having fun. :-)
I do a few bodyweight exercises, but I admit that I prefer training with weights and with my kettlebell. Yesterday I bought a few new weights and have now a 28kg barbell. And a big problem! Because the barbell is both too light and too heavy. 28kg isn't heavy enough for squats or deadlifts. I could do much more. Unfortunately 28kg is also way too heavy for me to get the barbell on my shoulders! I have no problem with lifting it up to my waist. Once it's on my shoulders, I have no problem with squatting. But there's no way I can get it from my waist to my shoulders alone. Every time I want to squat, I have to ask my friend Tom, who's currently staying at my place, to first place the barbell on my shoulders. >:-(
From now on I will be keeping a training journal, just for the record. I won't put it online though, this would be boring for you. I'll just post my current weights in my monthly reports. It won't mean much to you, it's just to keep track of my progress. Here are they for April 1st:
Squat: 28kg
Deadlift: 28kg
Shoulders: 10kg
Triceps: 4kg
Biceps: 8kg
Back: 2kg
Kettlebell: 12kg (swing, one-handed swing, clean)
And since I said I'd post more pictures, here is what I looked like on April 1st:
Admire the soccer player legs. ;-)
I absolutely love your soccer legs!
ResponderEliminarYour BMI is slightly higher than mine and your weight is slightly lower, but i don't think this matters much since your weight seems spread out. Yours arms are bigger than mine.
May we reach our weight and muscle goals!
Hi,
ResponderEliminarYou do not look overweight! Maybe you are not thin, but you are certainly not fat either!
Overweight has such a negative intonation. If you truly want to love you body the way it is, maybe you should let go of notions of fat or thin and just think healthy and beautiful! You have beautiful legs and stomach, and I am jealous of your hips. Mine are all bobly, yours are streight.
Love you body, don´t be negative about it!! You are beautiful!
Hello dear Rose,
ResponderEliminarThank you so much for being so supportive. After reading your other comment, I felt a warm and fuzzy loving feeling.
I wish you success with the weigth training. I like in heavy physical exercises, and I even like that aching feeling after that. I feel so alive!
I know that you could be a bit anxious by this but there is something I must say: I love you soccer player legs! :) You are very beautiful. Keep the pics coming! ;)
Love and hugs! :D
Eduardo